fightthenewdrug.org
2025-09-14
From Curiosity to Compulsion
I was 14 when I first encountered pornography. Like so many others, it started innocently--just something my friends mentioned at school. I didn't think about the abuse behind the scenes or how it might shape my view of women. I didn't think it mattered.
But everything changed in college. Living alone gave me long nights and endless internet access. What started as watching porn every few days escalated quickly--once a day, then multiple times. I would binge from night until sunrise and show up to work or class on two hours of sleep. I missed lectures, skipped shifts, canceled dates--just to watch more.
That's when the cracks started to show. I stopped taking care of myself. I became deeply insecure. Porn made me feel like I wasn't enough, I realized. I began comparing myself to the actors, convinced I could never satisfy a real woman. Worst of all, I stopped being attracted to the woman I loved. Porn didn't enhance my sexuality--it warped it.
I began watching things I wasn't even interested in, things I would never want to do in real life.
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